Monday, May 31, 2010 @ 10:56 PM

Training.

Sunday, May 30, 2010 @ 6:59 PM

7PM in the morning

Camp is over, I am not going to be one of those people who bother to write sermons ( I know people don't write sermons, they give them but whatever they're long. ), rambling on about the torturous camp.

Honestly, it's just so trying whenever It comes to blogging. I want to update about something intriguing but noooo, I get overwhelmed with immense acedia. ( thats a sin ) Hence, resulting in, well, literally nothing. To put it simply, I'm just exceedingly lazy.

Cultural Night was, uhm.. decent. But the moral of the. uh. play, was good.
I think people who try too hard to stand out ( but apparently fail ) are annoying and frankly, disgusting.
Then again, who am I to judge?
The equipment and stage props are so predictable. Budget school, budget equipment (eg. Microphones). What more could you expect?

Is it just me, or is my skeptical nature getting too out of hand? Damn.
Well, I can't force myself to do something about the damn that I just cannot give.
HAHA THAT SOUNDED COOL. I'M COOL

Bye suckers
(does anyone still read this space?) ._.

Saturday, May 22, 2010 @ 12:40 PM

Okay so english was bad since practically no one was listening and I was the only one awake in my row. Some idiot borrowed my foolscap to pretend to write on it while she slept and gave it back to me at the end of the period ( ?!?!?!?! thanks ) the other one slept like a pig. you cannot believe how hard it is to wake that girl up, she is a rock i tell you.

humans mr pillai played ice age 3 and then suddenly i was trapped in a black box. i thought to my self " my time has come .... "
Woke up and head for math. ( more like english ) did you know saudi arabia has no legal age for sex & marriage? I got the shock of my life ok. YANYEE you can have sex anytime in your native country!!!!!

chem. yay dingying is so funnyyyyyyyyy

afterschool met audrey. met with some contemplation and anger incited in me. how infuriating!
nevertheless i overcame that overwhelming feeling and left for lunch.
audrey & I had prata agaaaaaaaaaaaaain. left for my house. it felt like being in an incinerator terrible weather srsly. Luckily audrey didn't sweat like some waterfall or else my house would have already been flooded by then.

I forgot what we did but she had to leave for something. she begged me to bring machi down so i did. Machi started peeing everywhere but It's been long since he's gone down so I will forgive due to the soft heart of mine. ( YUCK ) KIDDING

came home, watched anime & read some manga and slept.
boring day today.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010 @ 5:50 PM

Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm not that proficient at constructing essays or narrations, I wouldn't know. All I DO know, is that I didn't do very well for English and, well, pretty much every other subject.

Who knows? I could have gotten complacent. Somewhere along those lines perhaps. I'd rather not elaborate. Okay I gotta stop this, I'm not writing a compo or something. Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeee gee gee gee baby baby.

I decided to do a proper update before I head into my slumber. My head's malfunctioning, I'm not sure how to make my brain stimulate in order anymore. It's like everything going on in that hollow brain of mine is rapidly swirling and creating tornados in there. How does it do it?
Really, its like Africa in there.

Results are out, and yes, I've been repenting.

Monday - Audrey came over and we watched a couple of movies. The lift incident almost had her in tears. Must have been traumatising for her, poor thing.

Tuesday - Results. Came home to repent. Slept like a rock for the entire day.

Today - Miserable.

We had to sing the national anthem like elephants. Tell me why do they torture us like that?
Sooner or later we're going to have to repeat so many times that we could even start rapping. Blasting our voices till our lungs are sore and even Bps can hear, they'll think we're a bunch of crazy lunatics!!!!!

RISE AND SUNSHINE PEOPLE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cannot. wait. for camp. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Sunday, May 16, 2010 @ 11:31 PM

Life.

If only life hadn't invented things such as love, maybe things would have been better for this world.

Maybe life wouldn't have been so hard for me if I was born somewhere else.
I know I should appreciate the fact that I'm lucky enough to be born in such a safe environment,
But maybe, just maybe, If I experienced real hardship, like people born in other parts of this globe, maybe I would mature more. Maybe things wouldn't be as hard for me as it is right now.

I want to see the vast blue sky, I want to actually be able to see stars in the night sky, I want to feel the cold wind brushing on my skin, I want to see vast fields of grass and flowers, I want to see large rivers and lakes, I want to see tall and beautiful mountains, I want to see snow, I want to see autumn leaves, I want to see everything that I don't get to see in this restricted scenery that I'm being contained in, I want to see life differently.

I want to go somewhere far, far away from the bustling city here, far away from everything I am being forced to face, far away from everything.

Sometimes I wonder why It's so difficult to live my life.

Thursday, May 13, 2010 @ 9:53 PM

Hard to please.

Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now.
While the floors underneath our feet are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling,
I still stand here holding up the roof, Cause it's easier than telling the truth.

EXAMS MAKE ME EMO.
Just so you know, I'm not emo, depressed, heartsick, crestfallen, downcast..... whatever best describes being emo.
FORTUNATELY, EXAMS. ARE. OVER.
I never knew my capability to study was that efficient. Can someone tell me why I'm so deprived and desperate right now? I suddenly feel like I have no social life. Thanks to the source = Exams. Now what can we infer from the source?
" Pressure & Stress. " ( 6/6 full marks ) Yay I am a master at source base questions fufufufuu.
Oh ya I am old. Not to mention I get this feeling I am growing senile.

Maths & Amaths - Screwed
Chinese & English - Screwed
History & SS - Screwed
Physics & Chem - Screwed
In conclusion: I screwed practically everything!!!! :D :D :D

I drew Super Loser on my LC paper. I had just finished colouring it when the teacher took my paper away nooooo :( I didn't finish my stick figure !!!!! Anyway I think my chinese is awesome (y). I gonna get full marks for lc kplzthx.

Chem today. not gonna elaborate because I'll just contemplate harder. AND SO, chinese oral HEH I PWNZXCXZ IT. After school, :)


To the person who's putting up a strong front;
I am always here. You should know that. WE are always here.

Saturday, May 8, 2010 @ 10:30 PM

Oh yes,
I am not apathetic hence I will blog about the wondrous day I had yesterday.

I didn't have a paper thus I did not go to schooooooooooooooooool.( yessssss ) how many of you had to? :) IN YOUR FACE okay sorry I don't mean to be mean.
Met audrey at the school bus stop she boarded with qk. We caught Ironman 2 tgt it was awesome srsly. Saw the couple in the cinema sitting in the couple seat ( right, jr & r? ) The first part was boring as hell I nearly slept. MY BACK IS ITCHY.
After the movie we parted. Audrey & I walked around and Qk flew to sri lanka. Bought ice cream and left for my place.

Watched art of seduction and my guts almost burst. Had pasta while watching and sent aud off to the bus stop as we sang high school musical. Thanks for embarassing, audrey, thanks.

Gangster City is fun. hehehhehehehehe

@ 8:57 PM

Exuberance

Someone tell me why I'm always to blame when I don't have any freaking idea what I've actually done wrong?
I am sick and tired of this.
Repeating the same thing over and over again just to know that it'll never get through.
Dreading the next time it happens again,
and the cycle repeats itself.
Is it my fault, really?

Why can't I put things into place, back to where everything was still normal.

I just want to block everything out, repel everything, live life like I've never done before.

Thursday, May 6, 2010 @ 10:22 PM

Airplane, airplane, sorry I'm late.

Can we pretend that airplanes In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now, I'm hopin' we can make some wishes outta airplanes.

Finally, my well-deserved rest ( for one pathetic day ) has arrived after millions of matrix calculations swirling in my head. I'm so exhausted from the conflict my left brain and my right brain have been having since the start of the exams. I should really get some sleep. The lack of sleep I've accumulated these days isn't doing the dark circles under my eyes any good. There is an insurmountable chasm between my social life and my academic life now that I've committed all my time into studying.

The whole studying thing just isn't very.. endearing. Nevertheless It's something I am forced to put up with.

Okay can we stop talking about study? I mean it's just me, and all, but uh. Well, yeah. SHUT UP
Great, now people are going to wonder If I'm really sane or not.

ITS LATE I SHOULD SLEEP YEAH? YES OK BAI

CAN YOU FREAKING/ LIKE, JUST, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH&%( HKBWCSYT*V@^(*V C&#V)31

One last thing. Am I crazy?

Tuesday, May 4, 2010 @ 10:56 PM

Widow :

1. A woman whose husband is dead especially one who has not remarried

( I am not sure about men )

Monday, May 3, 2010 @ 12:23 PM

I don't get it. I'm starting to wonder if life would have been different if I hadn't started out with, them. No, I appreciate them.
Is this really the life I chose? The life I yearned for? The life that seemed so distant and yet so anticipating while I was still enjoying life in an all-girls?

Now I only have small little things to look forward to, to keep myself happy.

Saturday, May 1, 2010 @ 2:34 PM

I hate it when my parents get all annoying.

Well excuse me, its not like I talked to them in a rebellious tone and then suddenly they start shouting at me when I've no idea what i've done wrong.

screw life