Wednesday, September 30, 2009 @ 8:42 PM

Baby, are you down?

Even if the sky is falling down?

Mom & dad,

Though i've made hurtful choices,
You silently watched me from behind.
Now that i no longer have a child's understanding,
I realise the meaning of your silent prayers.
Your constant nags seem annoying some times,
but lately they've been feeling different.
I realise how nonchalant i was.
Despite everything i've made you worry about,
you have always been following me along my footsteps.
When i was a child, you walked in front of me, leading me.
When i reached my cynical teenage life,
you stood beside me, side by side, sharing my burdens.
You've been there for me.
I'll become a person with a pretty heart,
someone who is selfless and kind.
So that i will be able to reciprocate whatever you've done for me.
I'll protect your expectations.
I don't want to lack anymore.
Thank you for whatever you've gone through for me.
I will always think of my mother who used to brush my hair,
and my father who used to teach me the best things about the world.

I love you mom and dad.







I am not commiting suicide.

Sunday, September 27, 2009 @ 2:39 PM

HI, we got passes for the f1 race. grandstand ^^ ( thanks to gu )
but i'm not going cos there's only two passes so dad & jie are going.

i wanna go though, ): it'll be so exhilarating !!!!
watched the night race last night. was rly cool.
my fav were kov hei and but. ( abbreviation )
i'm gonna go and do something entertaining.

Actually i feel like sleeping.

@ 2:26 PM

Why do i always feel so stressed when i'm school?
Why do rumors circulate?
Why can't everyone just be considerate?

I don't want to go to school and feel stressed about everything.
I hate this.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009 @ 6:16 PM

Happy birthday Sera !
Thx for always looking out for me as a senior. Esp last year's sports day :)
Luvvvvvvv you to the max, ass ! Assholes for life, k o: ( WTC LOL )

HELLO TMR THERE ARE THREE TESTS IN A ROW. IMA SCREWED SHITZ.
Gonna go cower in a corner and cram.
Bai :B

Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 1:56 PM

Scarlet.

Hello, i'm finally updating right? Right.
There hasn't been anything happening recently. I'm so sick of school, so sick of everything.
Sometimes i feel that being holed up and curled in a corner is the best.
I don't know what to do, i really don't. They say i should enjoy life right now, but i just can't bring myself to do it.
I'm stuck - like a broken clock that'll never move forward till it's mended.
I feel like a person with warped notions of life. I feel like i'll never move forward.
I feel so... empty.
Someone save me.

Enough. I'm not going to brood over things that will never come true.
Talked to julianne via webcam yesterday ( it's been so long, huh? ) We went abit mad last night.
I was frustrated over my hair and she was struggling with her keyboard cat.
JUST GREAT, it's going to rain. I love rain, but at a time like this? It's just not... the right time.

After that, audrey called. And we had a phlegm session. I couldn't stop laughing idk why.
NO, AUDREY, NO !!!

I feel like drawing.

Gonna go, seeyou.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 10:18 PM

HAPPY 300TH POST

HELLO THIS IS MY 300TH POST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Bet you guys had no idea anyway! :D ( NO ONE READS ANYMORE HA-HA )
Still, i wish i could celebrate.. with food.
I miss my family and relatives alot. Went over to Melis' house today, and everything suddenly felt so nostalgic. I mean, i've been going over to Melis' more frequently, but today it felt different. It felt so homely. I love my family.

Now i feel so lost. Everything is just school school school for me. Nothing more, nothing less. I should've treasured my earlier childhood ( i'm still in childhood k ).

And i've always thought that i had something to back me up all the time. Something that'd always be behind my back, rooting for me and supporting me. But something went amiss along the way. I guess i was oblivious, it was gradually fading away. I should've treasured it well, but i neglected it's tenderness, and now it's turned its back on me.
Let retribution befall me.

I hate teachers sometimes. They're so stubborn and refuse to believe you. Even though i'm so confident in my words, you blatantly disregarded them.

I love my friends and family. Let's talk about something optimistic.
Today, was alright. (: Liz and I went mad during math. English was fun because we played truth or dare and everyone gave up on me because i couldn't do any dares ): HAHAHA. IT WAS SO HOT TODAYYYYYYY. After school yan and nic waited for me, then we walked to the bus stop together w fel.
I am still rather happy despite all the problems arising.
And I shall continue to be happy! c:

Monday there is no school ( yay ).

Love. I need a break.

Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 8:50 PM

one more thing. sluts like to copy alot and i wish they would just learn their lessons BUT APPARENTLY they are dumb and incorrigible. why can't they just admit they have no style and have to rely on other people to look glamorous? I just cannot comprehend the way sluts think.

@ 8:30 PM

Indolence

Hello, i am finally updating.
I'm like so so so lazy.
Jon went for ns today, he'll be back in a couple of weeks. ( TAKE CARE )
He's gonna be all muscular and stuff, hard to imagine, but yeah. Anticipating his masculinity HAHAHA
Today was pretty much alright. I hate schoooooool, ughzxzszxczszxc. ):
Exams are coming ! I will persevere. YAY FOR CRAMMING :B

Lessons were boring as usual. Literature was interesting though.
I rly dk what to blog about. I mean, i should blog about what i feel and stuff, but right now i'm feeling so... so neutral. English lesson was fun.

Needa buy stuff and we were given a budget too o: Non-existant money.
But everyone went loony and bought practically everything. It was hectic like omg lah o-o.
And nata kept blocking me from getting to my seat! >( fat ah. HAHAHA joke.

Afterschool went for the sports and UG meeting, my mind went into a subconscious state.
Had lunch in school then doodled on paper before going for training.

AIYA SO BORED GONNA GO DO HOMEWORK BAI

Wednesday, September 9, 2009 @ 2:42 PM

MY BLOG HAS MET ITS DEMISE

Hi. my blog is dead !!!!!!! HAHAHAH
Gonna go now seeyou.

Saturday, September 5, 2009 @ 11:04 PM

Lachata~

Gostats has gone haywire. 1 hit in 8 months. Pathetic isn't it o:
Listening to Lachataaaaaaa~ ^^
(Y)(Y) slippers :)

yesterday:
after yan's piano went out to eat lunch at like 4.45 o: mad. anyway yeah went to eat prata, then went back to yan's house. talked about alot of in-depth things. her parents fetched me to melis' place and i subsequently had dinner there. then i kinda died cos my stomach exploded. It's been awhile since my stomach felt full to its brim.
TODAY WAS alright.
BORED GONNA WATCH ANIME BAI

Friday, September 4, 2009 @ 3:10 PM

Hello! I'm at Yan's house now. She's having piano downstairs and idk what to do. o:
Nat's coming later, i think. My phone's gonna be outta battery soon.
I'm calling Nat now.
Oh and a few days ago i talked to Melissa. (On the Phone)
She wanted me to say it. o: HAHAHHAHA.
Anyway, yeah was supposed to go out with Audrey today but apparently she's in charge of something ! Yay go go go fighting !!!!!
At yanyee's now, what should i do what should i do? o:
Going to Melis' later on. Because mom wants me to have dinner there. I'm going to die soon, of boredom. Usually i'd think of something to do but i'm blank now. I think my english is really deteriorating. I actually borrowed a few library books like 9 thousand years ago and i haven't returned it yet.
MY ENGLISH IS DEFINITELY DEGENERATING AND DETERIORATING AND DECOMPOSING AND TAINTING AND idk anymore ):
Screw life to the max.

That aside, thanks to Nicole, Rachel and Yanyee for waiting for 1 and a half hours for me o:
HAHAHA rly sorry! The aftermath of anxiety -> decomposition. ( The result of yanyee waiting )
She has no sense of direction and zero patience.
Goodbai.

LASTLY THIS POST GOES TO MELISSA MELISSA MELISSA MELISSA BECAUSE I'M TEH AWESOMEST COUSIN IN THE WORLD ! :D