Wednesday, February 27, 2008 @ 4:12 PM

hello. today was bitch-ed.

common test results are out, furthermore, i did not fail any except for chinese.
during the period of time when i did not blog, i got back some results.
therefore, god resurrected me back to life and thus i'm here to post on blogger.
hurray for me. so today i got back history and dt.
heres how i scored for my tests first.
english; 28.5/50
chinese;16/50
maths;26/30
chem;13/20
history;34/45
see . i only failed one.
i not gonna say my physics and dt yet.
i'm waiting for SOMEONE's.. test results first.
i'm definitely losing the bet. roar.
today's class was boring. and shit, my sit and reach is like .. -.-
hahaah , i've been smsing the entire day.
and no one noticed besides felicia . :D
the best part was during science lesson , cos i'm sitting with REX ;D
she's my bitch and i'm her baboon .
she calls me waki . cos we call each other pyrex and iwaki . ._.
weird , hurh , but who cares!.
its actually the brands of test-tubes. we'red just plain crazaye .
you can ask qi kang &jerrom . they're our bench mates . :D
ms ong changed our seats. i'm sitting with feliciaaaaaa ;D
at the back. haha. sitting at the back is fun. (:
oh and .. mr poh is a retard -.-
everytime he walks in ,
lightning crackles and the class would have a blackout.

..
just kidding ! :D
ohyea, and that noob that uses people's names in our class blog , own up pls . or i'll block your ip .
-.- oh and , i know you like our names but use your own name . dont tell me you dont have one.
ROARRRRR.

27/2/08;
i've been BYTCHED :)

Friday, February 22, 2008 @ 5:42 PM

aloy's valentines gift.


friday, 22nd February, 9:05AM.
'my world came crashing down on me..'

My life had changed, into a pit of misery.
health checkup.backbone screening. the nurse took the measurements of my backbone. i hated her. i hated every inch of her. from her wrinkled face to her scrawny body. why did i even WANT her to take me? i regretted that very minute i said that. i wasn't ready, and she just took the measurements. the most important part of my body. that was it, my backbone. why did she take my measurements? why did SHE take it. it resulted to total misery. outside, i sat on the chair next to the table. with her laptop placed slanted on the tabletop. she told me the most shocking thing i've ever heard. 'your bone is slanted to the left. SLIGHTLY. it is at an acceptable range.' for a moment, i thought the sun had stopped moving across the sky for that very second. there was a pause . that eery silence creeped me out. she handed me a pamphlet. of teaching me how to take care of my backbone. i was in utter shock, i really had nothing to say. i opened up the pamphlet. the more i read, the more i wanted to cry. i couldn't stand it, thus i put the pamphlet away and pretended nothing had happened. i was crying inside, i felt like punching that pimple-faced nurse. i knew it wasn't her fault. or maybe it was, i dont know. but at that moment, my mind went blank. my world came crashing down on me, i could feel my heartbeat increasing its speed rapidly. i thought to myself it was going to be okay. i went back to class like nothing happened, and i became the same melanie. it stayed the same until after school. during maths period, elizabeth handed out a piece of paper. i had totally forgotten about my backbone and the health check. in fact, i was excited to get that sheet of paper. i helped elizabeth give out the pieces of paper. as i was going back to my seat, i saw a certain word that made my life change.
backbone screening: POSITIVE.
at the bottom were a few words, i dont know what it said but beside it was : 0.3 degrees.
my backbone was curved to the left by 0.3 degrees.
disgusting, i told myself. at that time, my life had changed. to a place i didn't feel i belonged. i could hardly recognise this new world. i didn't have the mood, after putting my bag down at the atrium. i went to the canteen , the table right at the end nearest to the basketball court. i sat there, head pressed on the table and body leaning forward. i sat there, arms crossed on the table, head leaning on my hands, i closed my eyes. i felt like crying. and i did, as my head lowered and no one could see my face. tears welled up in my eyes. last year it wasn't like that. it really wasn't. i've been having NEGATIVE for the past 12 years. just thinking of it made me cry more. i hated it. i dont want it to be this way, i really dont. this is what life is, and you have to open your eyes and look at it, listen to it, smell it: people who dont like you, things you dont want to do, things that hurt, things that scare you, questions without answers, feelings you dont understand, feelings you dont want but have no control over. reality.
i dont want to be like those little kids . when you look outside the window, you see little kids in pushchairs who've already forgotten how to smile. i dont want to turn out like that.
i'm indeed shedding tears in front of the computer.
'how silly, crying over these sort of things' you say?
are you like me? 12years of a straight backbone, and suddenly someone tells you that your backbone is curved? this 'someone', a mere stranger. do YOU know how it feels like? shut the fcuk up if you dont, and if you did, i empathise with you.
now i'm just going to set a goal for myself.
80situps per day.
this is my new life.
i'm hugging my little dog plushy.
at a time like this i guess i just need to hug something.
bye, i ain't gonna rant on anymore.
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common test results:
chemistry: 13/20
chinese:16/50
maths:26/30.
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go AWAY.

Saturday, February 16, 2008 @ 7:49 PM

sorry i havent been posting .
i've been having frequent headaches lately .
and theres nothing to do in school either . just thoughts of geography clouding up my mind .
tests all through the week , parents picking on me , maybe they're the reasons for my headaches .
i slept early yesterday . before shutting the computer down , i checked my contacts . no one seemed as retarded as me . sleeping at such an early time ? you crazy moron , its a friday . yea well , i was bushed. happy belated valentines by the way . a very random post , but its to get stuff out of my mind . lately everything seemed so clogged up like books piling on top of each other , expecting me to read them . guess i cant get my thoughts right . i'm not even thinking right now , everything's just coming out on its own . its cold . the aircon's blowing directly towards me and my cardigan isn't helping . i feel like playing the piano . know i dont read the scores . i memorise them and play without a score . i wish i could continue learning piano. but my mom doesnt want me to .
why cant i learn something i'm interested in. i don't have god-given talent you know. if you're saying i have a god given talent , you're not really giving me my due credit .
anyway , i gotta go now .
i'm gonna go to sleep soon .
before that, my dear piano is waiting for me .
seeyea around;
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Sunday, February 10, 2008 @ 9:38 PM

i went plaza sing todayeeeee. i practically rotted at home for the entire day until about 4+ talked to SMOKE!loll. until like about 4. and then, i went plaza sing's carrefour to get fbt's. [: the sales girl, i asked her ' whats the diff between these to fbts priced differently? $10.90 & 12.90 ? ' she replied .. ' uhh , cos ah .. you see ah , the logo colour is different, one yellow one white. ' HUH?! -.- me and my mom just laughed . then i took one to try on (; hohohoos [: went back to the sales person, and i asked her ' is this dry fit ? ' she was like ' err .. you know ah , you cannot wash this tgt with the white t-shirt leh , if not ah, the whole thing become black leh! so ah , must put in the net ah , and blablabla... ' i was like, holy crap.! and aft that, i asked again. ' so is this dry fit? ' and she just laughed. O.O ;bought two fbts. aft that, i went to check out the manhattan fish market restaurant thingy . lolol , my mom was like fake looking at the menu? i was like ' mom lets go lets go! ' lolol. so after that , me &my mom went down . we went to guardian ! [: i saw i saw i saw .. OXY 5 ! x3 . wuuhahaas . then aft a whole 30mins of waiting for my mom to finish looking at the make-up section, we FINALLY went back. i keep seeing familiar faces . rawrh [: erm , i went home, played computer &then set off to julianne's. had cabonara! lolol , then went up to watch finish school of rock. cousin's are crazy over that show. o.o HAHA! aft the show, kaima came up. she played with my volleyball . and ended up hitting the candles o.o the WOODEN vase broke -.- haha! i just picked the little itsy bitsy pieces and went off. [: aft i came home, i went to pack my bags. i was like OH SHIT! where are my math books? and i looked around for like, 10mins? and then i got SO worried. in the end i found out it was underneath my pile of DT books. WTFCK! lolol. [:
aight, ending here.
shutup! i aint doing anything wrong :X
i just said what i needed to say [:

scream your heart out.

Friday, February 8, 2008 @ 10:09 PM

heyhoos. i'm back yeaps. [: collected so much moneyyyyyy. $_$ wuuhahaaah. today, i went to watch cj7. i cried like hell canzxcs. haha! esp when the little boy's dad passed away. ): i was like covering my mouth with my hands, and at the same time crying. RAWRH. fixed melissa's msn when i came back. j8 had like alot of shuai guys. me&jul&my sis were like ' omg that guy has nice hair ' / ' omg that guy looks hot with glasses ' / ' omg , he has a nice body.. :X ' LOLOLOL! we're mad. &then at melissa's house, we played uno with jon &stuff right, but in the end, we werent even playing uno. we were throwing the cards like throwing stars. LOLOL! i'm talking to melissa now.

Don't cry because it happened; smile because it's over~ <33 Melissa says:
I shall change my nick
Don't cry because it happened; smile because it's over~ <33 Melissa says:
><
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
yes
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
you shall
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
(:
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
yes?
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
my nick sucks
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
wait
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
yes
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
your nick sucks .
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
i hate you
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
i wanted some encouragement
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
now i get BS
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
it would be nicer if there werent any capititalising .
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
LOLL
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
SOOOOOOO TWIIT ):
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
you SUCK my bloody balls
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
oh wait
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
I DONT HAVE ANY
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
you dont have balls.
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
LOL
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
PRECISELY
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
SIANZ
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
and WHO'D WANNA SUCK YOURS IF YOU HAD ANY!
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
LOLOLOL!
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
I HATE YOO
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
><
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
okaye (:
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
haha!
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
NO LAH
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
IT'S ALL ABOUT TH LOVE
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
*THE
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
DAMN MY SPELLING SUCKS.

-_______-

and this is how we end the convo.

--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
GWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS~ PEEKABOOO
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
OKAES
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
I GOTTA GO NOWS
--The WoRld isN'T FAir..Life AIn't bUT YOo stiLL GOttA LiVe IT..-- Melissa ;] says:
BUH BYES
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
BYEEE MADDO!
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
O_O
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
now that wasnt even a word.
❤ ; MELANIE . my love for smoke LOLOL (; says:
-_-


hhahahahaha. we're mad cousins. but heck (;
i cant act insane for nuts. hahaha! aight, ill just end here.
(:
damn, gotta study for common test. ):

Wednesday, February 6, 2008 @ 10:21 PM

lalalaaas

YTD, VBALL TRG! :DDDD , c div got friendly with rvh . they win lo. ): 3 matches , peirce win 1, rvh 2. damn. hahaha. coach choose 4 sec1s to join c div. i THINK. o_o , nicole, donno whats her name, and the other one i also donno, and me. (: we all get to wear jersey! all the others dont. ahnehhh :XXX we wearing temporary de la. haha, no name at the back one :D &we joining c div girls for real match. just to watch la. but if coach wan us to play, then we play lo. haha (; MS POON I WAN MY JERSEY ~ today nothing happen, just celebration . wa play volleyball till sian liao. haha. wa okok , i tou tong liao. post tmr. bye, happy new year (;
seeyou soons.
ending here :DDD

Saturday, February 2, 2008 @ 11:32 PM

10days more. to the day that i miss dearly. 12january2oo8, its been a year. and this date, i will never forget. i miss saying 'happy anniversary' i miss calling you 'dar' or 'dear' i miss everything we're not now. o7 was a year i never could forget. ily, i still do, but now i cant do anything. i'm just glad to know you're still there.

today, was okaye i guess. i mostly didnt do anything until 5++ when i went vivo. we went toysrUS to buy BALLS -.- sounds weird, i know. haha! anyway, melissa &all were cny shopping. they buy branded stuff so, yea. 100++ dollars. rich kias. :X anw , aft that we went to eat. we were eavesdroppping at a couple next to us. they look about 14+ and they were on a date at a cafe that doesnt suit them at all. ALL the couples in this cafe were all adults. extra la they! haha. and guess what? they came, ordered TWO drinks &left. wtf? haha. aight, i guess thats it for today. theres nothing else that happened la. just went home to play with my vball. OHOHOH! and we saw amkss' mr ong/DM. his window was open, and melissa was like 'OMG MR ONG! MR ONG!!' so loud. she wasnt saying directly to him, she was saying it to ME. and then mr ong was like staring at her ._. haha! WE SAW MR ONG IN THE CAR WATCHING BARNEY WITH HIS WIFE! hahahahaha. funny, but no, his kids were watching. haha. okaye, thats all for this post.

seeyou, ending here ;D

i thought i could manage without you, but fate proved me wrong.
you're so close, and yet so far.
i miss the time when both of us were tgt.
the two songs you dedicated to me.
the lyrics of the song, that you said you'd protect me with.
for the last time, i will say this.
dar, happy one year anni . (;

Friday, February 1, 2008 @ 9:36 PM

OMGGGGGGGG. i'm so sorry i didnt update. i was lazy haha! ON WEDNESDAY , that DAMN markus got me all soaked in milo :X but nvm la. he always qi fu wo. xi guan le. haha! [: thn the next day i kena fever lo. sore throat, fever, flu&cough. damn. haha! then ytd &today nv go school lo. i came at ard 12+ , and i went to class . they celebrating january babies bdays! ms ong bought cake &drinks! partayyeeee manzxcs. (; thn i went for the excursion to lasalle college of the arts . damn boring la. me,jingwen,laraine&germaine all nv do anth :X all we did was look at each other phone lo. kns la! damn boring canzxcs . OMG did i tell you about the doctor that i saw.
its a HE. anw , he's called dr lee wee tee . alot of 'ee' worszxcs . hahaa! i went into the room, and i was like PCB? IS THIS A GUY OR A GIRL? homo siols! hahaa. KNS can. got so big boobs, face look like a woman, wear the suit also can see the bodyline one! HAHA!
ohyea, today when we going back school , me,laraine,jingwen&germaine we all zilian dao die la!
zilian like mad women canzxcs . OH DID I TELL YOU, when we went the college of the art thing, we saw the dancers right, GOT ONE AHNEH , she dance dao her boobs always shake de lahzxcs . damn erxin . HAHA! you should see her face. yue kan yue bu shuang :X
THEY ALL DANCE LIKE MAD WOMEN .__. i thought they insane lei . -.- haha! you shoulda seen it. ;D aight all , thats about it. oh and today i talked to pek. he seems much brighter thn last time. [: currently talking to: kc,melvin,lance pek&zhusai ._.
hah. btw, THANKS ALL for wishing me get wells. [:
ilys! <3
NOTE TO ALL : lqk say he decided not to like anybody wor! :O
haha.
VALENTINES IS COMING! who's gonna give chocs to who? (;
seeyousoons.
ending here (;